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A hard thing to do

The hardest thing for me to do is to remain objective. I guess that it's a fairly big problem I have. I get so cynical about people and start to stereotype. I had a bad day at work. I was talking to a friend I work with explaining a litany of offences commited upon me by customers (mainly just not being tipped, how greedy am I?). The thing is, and this is disgusting, but it's easier to put stereotypes out of your mind when you're making good money. It's easier to wear the fake smile, laugh at stupid jokes, and pretend you think other people are cool. And it's horrible I just said that. And thats what I said to my co-worker (who incidently saved my ass from being fired during previous slumps in the beginning). I think the attitude I have is absolutely horrible. I hate my job because I'm so fake and fake sells. I hate that my most commoditable asset is something I find deplorable.

So I told her how much I hate my job given the reasons listed above and she gave me a good pep talk about how I was being fake as a way to cleanly slip people into stereotypes. It's true that I sum people up quickly and then just smile. I enjoy serving some people but for the most part I just do the amoutn of work and necessary smiling to make some money. And if I feel like a whore or a robot sometimes it's because I'm just that, and because I let myself be just that.

I don't feel like this is leading anywhere... I'm going to try to stop being fake. I'm going to stop stereotyping my customers. I won't get mad when I don't get a good tip. Yeah I still hate my job because I'm part of a small corporation and subjected to ideals I don't agree with. But I know this is something only temporary. I know that I need to make money to go back to school. And while my loose objective is somehow equating serving pizza with beating children, I have the feeling that I'm exaggerating things a bit.

• I need to start putting together more coherant posts.
• Cynicism is the biggest opposition to changing the world for the better.
• If you chew your toenails you may get foot and mouth disease.
• Buy Nothing Day November 26th.

posted by Rob and Lauren @ 11:37 PM