Things that Fly!

Stir it up.

I think I've let my thoughts and ideas bottleneck over the last few months. I'm definately feeling the pressure now as I try to arrange everything in an order not resembeling chaos. When I last wrote I felt it would be alright to just soak everything in and enjoy the madness for awhile. I felt like it didn't matter whether or not I shared my experiences and stories with the world. I thought it would be best that I live my own story to the fullest extent that I could, but after some thought I realized that I have a huge desire to share all the wild and crazy thoughts I have with the world-- just as I have a huge desire for the world to reciprocate and show a wilder side of itself.

This is the process of creativity; a free exchange of influence between people and their environments. Our culture obviously doesn't foster an economy designed for such exchanges. Where the currency of choice should be ideas we have the dollar. What could stiffle creativity more than a captitalist society? And some will argue that capitalism fosters creativity in it's approach to find the bottom line. I would argue that capitalism simply encourages people to work as efficiently as possibly within a constrained system. Creativity isn't creativty at all when people only have one objective in mind-- one perspective to work with.

Life exists in so many more directions than just making a dollar. And while I have strong criticisms of the culture we live in, I'm beginning to see things a little differently. I'm listening to music now that takes over me and lets my mind wander. I'm reading books I would have thought crazy and finding them indispensible in gaining new perspective. I'm reading the news and watching TV and wondering how I ever spent so much time addicted to such mindless, lifeless drivel-- and wondering why our culture is so attached to such devices.

I feel like ever since I started University I have been in the process of breaking away from the conforming influences in our society. It's been a slow process-- two years of University, a year of traveling, a year of working-- but it feels like the most progress has been in the last few months. I met a girl who's intelligent, and beautiful and most importantly patient. My relationship with her has forced me to deeply scrutinize the culmination of personal growth over the last few years. As I become closer to her there there's a strong desire to share my perspectives and ideas on life, to share them creatively and to seek out new situations and creative influences for us to share. It's a lot to think about, but I definately still feel like I'm in the middle of a great adventure.

It feels good to write some of these things out, even if they don't make sense entirely, or at all. I'll definately be writing more. I need to share my thoughts, I need to know that they're out there and not just bouncing around my brain. Until next time, Cheers.

posted by Rob and Lauren @ 2:00 PM