Things that Fly!

Sleepless nights

It's 3am Monday morning. The past couple nights I've been working late at Boston Pizza. The restaurant is open until 3am, and so by the time I get home and actually get to bed its like 5 in the morning. It's a difficult switch to go from Friday and Saturday's 3am close to Sundays 12am close. I get home and even though I'm so tired my body just doesn't feel like sleeping.

I try to meditate while I'm laying in bed. I try to block out all extraneous thought and just focus on my breathing. It always starts out so well and thoughts slip slowly away but I always end up getting stuck on one thing. It will just keeping on going through my mind as though giving attention to such a thought while your supposed to be sleeping will somehow be useful. And I end up having to get up and tire myself out a bit because this thought has got me so rowled up. Tonight's thought is this travel photography company.

I think that anything is possiblebut also that it's so easy to doubt yourself. Just today I read an article about a Canadian company that makes "chopstick trainers". They're little eraser sized objects that you place on the end of your chopsticks and they help you to develop the proper motion. Reading about a company like that makes me thinking two things. My first thought is one of doubt. How did they ever manage to succeed? My second thought is one of optimism; it's a company that shows that you can put together anything with determination. And I am so determined.

I'm still feeling a little restless but I think I'm going to get a glass of water, maybe a snack, curl up next to Lauren and go back to meditating, or at least trying. I think time is on my side with my determination to fall asleep.

posted by Rob and Lauren @ 3:23 AM