Drive to Mexico
I'm talking to Katy right now. It's a converstion more or less about change, but it started out with "I'm bored". I said we should drive to mexico. I can hear the music playing on the long drive down, and the amazing conversations we would have. I imagine stopping for coffee at late-night road side dinners. We would drive all day and all night, with the vision of a gorgeous Mexican beach, and a warm shot of tequila.
That perspective is one I understand. What I don't understand is the perspective of daily life. I don't understand long hours for an empty career. Buying expensive cars. Watching reality TV on Satellite. Or chasing empty relationships. I don't understand these things, and I'm having the hardest time fitting them into my life.
I think I need another vacation.
I learned some new guitar today. I've pretty much got I Miss you by Incubus down, and i'm starting to work on #41 by Dave Matthews. Why is he such a genius with a guitar? I just thought of something wierd. I wonder what would happen if you could see different peoples genius by different measurements. What I mean to say is if you converted Dave's musical genius to say Scientific genius, would he be able to cure cancer.
Holy I need to start coming up with better material. I also need to find a place to loadmy picture onto the web so that I can start a photoblog, and upload some pictures ofmy trip. I'm going to the fair tonight with Jessica. I'm definately stoked for a candy apple.
It's been slow. Yesterday marked a month of being home from traveling. After moving around the world for 8 months, staying in one place for so long is quite unsettling. Anyways after a month of restlessness and visiting friends I'll be starting a new job next week at Boston Pizza as a server. I'm looking forward to it, it looks like a fun place to work and it's pretty close to home.
I'll be working for a year before going back to school. I'm glad I have time to go through things and re-organize my life. I thought I would do this while I was traveling, but it turns out it was more of an 8 month vacation. But now I have time to relax and realize what's a priority in my life and what direction I want to move in...and how fast. My life has been kind of slow, and I'm looking forward to picking the pace up a bit. Saving for school, moving out, buying a car, paying off student loans, spending more time with friends and family, playing more guitar and pursuing other interests.
I'm happy to be home, and very much excited about this year.
Keep Looking
Of lately my mind has been occupied with the concept of time. I feel it like I feel the wind, and while I don’t understand the passage of time I do understand that seasons change, that stars and planets shift in the sky, and that people grow. Time is about change. It’s a good system I think, because the way I see it, most things in life that are changing turn out to be quite beautiful. Caterpillars, Sunsets, the ocean’s tide, the flame of fire. If things stood still the certain appeal to keep looking would be lost.
Documenting the Madness
If ever I needed a beginning it's now. I'm twenty years old and I'm about to start my life. I'm going to start slowly. I'm going to teach myself to crawl, to run, and then fly. And soon I will be moving so fast that one dream will not be enough, and many more will need to be thought of in order to keep up. But for now...Baby steps.
